I keep forgetting about this journal...i guess because i mostly use my livejournal one. oh well...well life has been very stressful lately. between arguing with melanie's so called father and ryan deploying soon, i have been extremely irritated for the past month. we have got so much to do in such little time, its crazy. and the thing that sucks the most is that we dont know exactly when he is deploying...the just said to be ready at any time. im like that is not helpful. basically he's leaving, and that leaves me with a ton of headaches to take care of. ive got to finish clearing housing, ive got to pay off his wrecks and his school loans and his bank debts. i just feel like im getting left with more than i can handle...i keep telling him he needs to take care of as much stuff as he can before he leaves, because im going to have enough on my plate as is. but who knows. all i know is he owes a lot of people, a lot of money. fortunately we will have the money to pay everything off, but thats just money that we wanted to save for a house. we will probably be buying a house in louisville when he gets back. maybe, we might wait. we are also getting a new car when he gets back. i guess thats the only good thing about deploying. the money. but still that doesnt replace my husband or time. anyway, i need to get going, im tired and ive got a lot to do.